I have always had a philosophy about doing my best. Although goal oriented, I never minded if I didn't meet my expectation level ( I do not care about someone else's expectations at all), if I did my best...gave it my best effort....Everyone has heard that phrase...but, what does it mean.....I have a favorite saying that tells clearly what it means to me....it is in the Vitamins for the Mind section of this site:
"Resolve says, "I will". The man says"I will climb this mountain. they told me it is too high, too far, too steep, too rocky and too difficult. But it is my mountain. I will climb it. You will soon see me waving from the top or dead on the side from trying." Jim Rohn
This saying of Mr. Rohns says it all for me....my best effort is being dead on the side from trying...metaphorically , of course :-)....to me, it means I am exhausted mentally and physically and burned out from trying and working. Then I know ,I can't do better. I am happy with what I have done even though I may have fallen short of my expectations.
So, I took the time on sabbatical to see just how far I could go in my goal with this music. It was gift to me. It was so worth it and in the future when I have something I want to learn , I am giving myself all the time I need to learn it until I can do no more....This has made me very very happy. I have the recording sitting on my computer for my teacher this week .....did I meet my expectation level for the Haydn ?...no, I did not...but, my level of expectation was an impossible one to meet with the experience I have. I know I did my best because....I was dead by the side from trying.....and I was very happy and satisfied about it.
Fortunately, I do not expect another major piece that I care about that much for a few months or so...that will be Chopin's Nocturne in Eb.....I have been waiting a long time to play this piece in the original Eb flat key.....so...I had better keep my favorite saying close by to remind me of what it might take:-)
"We all have dreams. But in order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lot of determination, dedication, self-discipline, and effort." - Jesse Owens
"Continuous effort - not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential." - Winston Churchill
"Satisfaction lies in the effort, not in the attainment, full effort is full victory." - Mahatma Gandhi
"Strength and growth come only through continuous effort and struggle." - Napoleon Hill
"It is only through labor and painful effort, by grim energy and resolute courage, that we move on to better things." -
Last but, not least....one of my favorites:
"Happiness lies in the joy of achievement and the thrill of creative effort."
Franklin D. Roosevelt