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These posts are my musings and cover many topics.  Some posts will be observations that I have made over my lifetime...some will be what I call, truisms.  Truisms that I have developed from having to deal with the tough situations life sometimes deals us.  I developed these little philosophies to help me avoid a situation in the future or  to allow me to have a better outcome the next time around.  All observations, truisms , and whatever other post this blog contains are  based on my own personal experiences and  opinions.  Hopefully, some post will be of some help to someone in a situation or  give someone another perspective...another way of looking/thinking about a situation that is helpful.  I love writing these posts and I appreciate you  reading them :-)

Please be aware there is a NEW  feature added to  some of the Musings.....AUDIO....There will be an audio bar on those Musings that offer this option.....You may not feel like reading at that moment....now you may listen:-)

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"All our words are but crumbs that fall down from the feast of the mind."- Gibran

A Cello Journey...Finding My Heart's Voice  (Part One)

8/30/2013

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Even though I am currently on my cello journey...following my life's dream....there is always a beginning to any journey. I have to go back several decades and visit my past to tell my story.

I remember, so well, the day I went to the orchestra/band room at my school.  I was in the 7th grade.  I wanted to play an instrument and be in the orchestra....but, what instrument?  The music director,  Mr. Blackman, said to go into a practice room and he would bring me an instrument and I would spend time alone with it...and when I was ready he would bring me another...a stringed instrument was what I wanted.  

Mr. Blackman was the finest teacher a kid could ever have.  We all loved him and he was supportive to us all.  I owe him everything cello as he went to bat for me when I had no one.  I don't see this kind of thing happening today.  I was one lucky kid to have him on my side.

But, back in the practice room, I spent time with the violin but didn't like the sound...too high...the viola was boring and too big to hold under the chin...too inbetween for me...then he brought the cello...I soon knew that the sound..poor as it was coming from a kid...was my sound.   I tried the bass fiddle also and liked it but it was not practical ,  I thought ,and too deep and a bit boring in sound.  So , it was to be the cello for me....I was then assigned a school cello.  It is very vague what happened between then and  the next chapter...getting a teacher.  I believe he helped me and gave me a book and I did it myself.  I know I loved it and the orchestra.  I always felt/feel an internal excitement about the cello from my very first encounter with it.

I came from a very non-supportive  home environment and there was resistance to  getting me a teacher and a cello ...to say the very least.  Mr. Blackman repeatedly called my Mother until she gave in on the teacher and he found Mr. Liberti.  How he got him to teach me, I do not know but, Mr. Blackman performed magic in my eyes.  Mr. Liberti was with the Cleveland Orchestra and was the best !!  Everytime I touch a cello, I use what Mr. Liberti taught me.  I was a lucky kid to have him. Then, this whole thing with getting my own cello started...I was using a school instrument and was allowed to bring it home every night.  Getting a cello took a lot longer and a lot of drama was attached to it as there was serious resistance to this idea.....Mr. Blackman made several calls to my Mother and finally, she relented.   He even sent the salesman to our home and I got a "student" cello.  As I look back, I marvel at the effort and commitment  to me this teacher had.  He made a huge impact on my life. 

The next 5 yrs went by quickly.  I practically lived at school in the bandroom....I was in orchestra, danceband with the drums and back up bass...and my love...the polka band with bass fiddle.  During the summer I was in All- City Orchestra with kids from all over the city.  I played at Severance Hall twice with our little Orchestra....a huge  deal. The usual contests and recitals....it was a wonderful time.   I  was happiest in the band room playing my cello....I took it everywhere....I dragged  it to school and back home every day in all kinds of weather....back then, we walked to school(we never had a car).  I named my first cello, Oscar! I was very serious and had my sights set on the The Cleveland Orchestra.

It was towards the end of my last HS year (12th) that things took a different turn.  I became engaged toward the end of my last year .  The wedding was scheduled a few months after my graduation.  About a month or so before graduation, Mr. Blackman came to me and told me he obtained a full scholarship for me from Oberlin University for cello performance...My dream was to go to Oberlin and then, of course, onto the CSO.

It was a different time with different expectations back then.  Today, this scenario would not play out  in the same way as it did for me back then.   I turned this scholarship down for another path to my future.  Thus ending my cello dream.

to be continued....several decades later in Part 2......

Some quotes from a man  who has been  an  inspiration  thru out my life:

"Music is the divine way to tell beautiful, poetic things to the heart." - Pablo Casals

"The most perfect technique is that which is not noticed at all." - Pablo Casals


When Casals (then age 93) was asked why he continued to practice the cello three hours a day, he replied, “I’m beginning to notice some improvement.”


A young Mellow Cello from yearbook:-)
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4 Comments
A-Life-Of-Song
8/30/2013 06:52:50 am

I simply can't imagine setting forth on my musical journey without my parents' support. They supported and encouraged me from the beginning, even when finances were tight, and they support and encourage me still to this very day. I wish I could make every student who are so fortunate, but who take everything for granted, see how difficult it might have been. Looking forward to reading part 2.

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Mellow Cello link
8/30/2013 07:44:17 am

Thank you Life of Song for your very insightful comment...the hardest part..apart from all the drama...is that i wasn't allowed to practice all I wanted/needed to...so i stayed late after school to use the practice rooms...that big guy in the picture is Mr. Blackman....you can tell how kind he was by his smile and his eyes...I am living part 2 now :-)..my second chance....and I promise it will be a happier post:-)

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Randy Jackson
8/31/2013 01:39:33 am

This strikes a heart chord.
Growing up, creativity of any sort was in the least considered insignificant; it would seem boys in our family were supposed to display nothing short of physical prowess regardless of the unkind demonstrations this created. Well, I must have been quite the disappointment because I was imaginative, curious, instinctual, and strongly attracted to anything creative-expressive.
I guess you could say a day came when I ran out of steam and allowed their ridicule to provoke a different course; I turned my back on anything resembling creativity and instinct. I denied myself any opportunity there might have been for pursuing art, and opted for many years of factory work, etc.
But, as you; I discovered the universe creates opportunities, and sometimes what feels like second chances. Now, I don’t know if it’s to see what I will do with it this time around, but I sure have learned not to take things as this for granted.
Thank you for sharing this; it was for me a heartfelt story filled with many reflections. Your blog is truly evolving into something beautiful. I’m enjoying your blog, enthusiasm, and creativity…

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Mellow Cello link
8/31/2013 12:08:45 pm

Your comment brought tears to my eyes, dear Randy.....thank you for sharing your experiences....they were very similar to mine especially...being a disappointment .....I think our experiences...everyones...make us not only stronger but who we are...we are both so fortunate to be on our the path that we choose...I think a lot of people get second chances and either ignore them or don't want to do the work needed to accomplish their dream or resolve their health issues...it's always been obvious to me ...since I have "known" you that you are, for sure, a hard worker. All I think a second chance is ...or what is expected of us when we get one ...is to simply do everything we can to take advantage of it and....as you said....not take it for granted:-) Thank you for all your beautiful words you always leave here and in all your comments to me...they are always so kind and supportive and I appreciate them and consider them special!

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